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Me, Chastity Vase

Me, Chastity Vase
My name is Chastity Vase

ABOUT ME

I met, knew and fell deeply in love with a vampire named Danny once but I have to be very careful about how I discuss our unorthodox relationship. Otherwise people will think that you are messed up in the head ; you know crazy, need some time to finger paint and pop your daily meds in a room with no windows and no sharp objects. And yes a place where a strait jacket awaits you if you even yawn too widely.



I learned my lesson from that first dark medicated haze of rage behind those dark, putrid padded walls in the psych- ward and I’m not going back there ever, ever again. Yes, I’ll tell you my wild vampire story ! They can’t stop me from talking and telling a story! But I have to be careful it ’s all in how tell I the story. Before they locked me up I was vehemently and desperately trying to share facts that I could not prove and that made me look crazy.



Out of my own blood sweat and tears I’ve come to realize that there is a very thin line between fact and fiction. So when Mom discovers and she will discover that I’m talking about Danny again and says, “YOU ARE BECOMING DILUSIONAL AGAIN!!! ” I will say, “No my dear, you are delusional . Can’t you see that I’m only telling a vampire tale. Not living one!” She and Dr. Soft will never trick me into saying that I believe that it is a fact again. But I do-- yet I don’t--- but I do--- Yet I don’t . Do-- do-- do!!! Don’t --- don’t--- don’t !



This is nonsense , I know but it protects me so that I can tell you without fear of being locked up again ; all the things that happened between me and my vampire . I’ll start here just talking with you as though you are a friend that I can trust.

PROLOGUE

Everyone behind bars says ,“I didn’t do it. I am not guilty but I really didn’t do it ! ! I did not kill dad and I am being released today. Dr. Soft is letting me out the North Austin asylum and I get to go home. Mom is supposed to watch me carefully for signs of violence, confusion and suicidal thoughts.



“Mainly you are to watch her for violence and call us right away if she threatens you with violence!” Dr. Soft warns my mother in a voice laced with confusion as they talk about me in hushed voices outside of my padded door.



“I don’t understand why you want her out of here? She’s so dangerous! I just don’t know why you want her out?” Dr. Soft quizzes my mother. “She might get up in the middle of the night and cut your head off.” It’s the money! I know why she wants me home. I mumble this to myself. Mom needs money because greedy Mamma has gone through all of the stacks of cash that Danny Habba left piled high for us on the kitchen table. Mainly for me !



Danny left that money piled high on the table for me ! But my mother got control of it all and has spent every bit of it while I’m locked away in here. Now she is wondering if I have any more money hidden away. She wonders knowing that because of my poverty riddled life I can hang on to a dime until Roosevelt says he’s being choked . She’s right I did take some of the stash and hide it.



I have about two hundred thousand of those crisp one hundred dollars bills hidden away in two hat boxes in my mother’s closet: the very last place that she would look. So she’s bringing me home because she can’t find the money anywhere in the house and she needs to spy on me or try to persuade me to tell her where it is, lol a thousand times. I’ll part with every tooth in my head before I give up that money. I am not lying!!!!



The conversation outside of the door seeps beneath it in muffled words. And he insists that she keep me on my medications and tells her AGAIN to call him the minute violence surfaces in me. His voice is intense when he says this. “Get away from her and hide as soon as possible!”



And he promises that the big hog of a woman and scrawny, lizard face man that dragged me out of my basement and jammed the hypodermic needle in my neck the first time will gladly do it to me again. I heard Mom purr like a satisfied cat on hearing that news because she’ll invent any lie to send me back after she gets the money. She promises him to keep a hawks eye on me and my propensity toward killing. Mom watching me lol? What a laugh!!



She’s a prescription druggy in every dysfunctional sense of the word . She knows very well that I did not kill Dad! I did not string Dad up by a bunch of wires and kill him by punching a lot of holes in his head and body with a nail gun. I did not watch him bleed outtt and if I did let him bleed out why couldn’t they find any traces of blood around the body ? Where was the blood? All the idiot experts could think of was a nail gun for all of the puncture wounds .



I did not do it ! I never touched him! But Dad deserves to be dead. I would have done but I just didn’t have the guts to do it. I know who did have the guts and he didn’t kill him with a nail gun either. I feel like saying some awful words but I don’t use profanity. My Dad cussed all the time and I believe it made him meaner and uglier. I think cussing takes away gentleness and civility, it makes a person beastly and mean and insensitive to the feelings and needs of others. Dad was such a beast to me so I ‘ll just take off a letter or two when I talk about him and you ’ll know what I would say about him if I used profanity.



That ASTARD got just what he deserved when the vampire killed him and I’m not loosing any more tears over him! I cried once over his pitiful mutilated body because he is my father . But while I was crying over what was left of his dead body my mind went back to his brutal treatment of me. I don’t know how many times and how hard that lousy ASTARD punched me just below the stomach leaving my ovaries and uterus just throbbing ; I was in excruciating pain. He hit me so hard in my womb anytime that he wanted to hurt me. The pain lingered on for so long after his brutal bludgeoning and I hobbled around for at least a month after his assault. I always healed up just in time to have my cycle come on and almost kill me squeezing through my bruised and swollen fallopian tubes. HE GOT WHAT HE DESERVED!! I’M GLAD HE’S DEAD!





Mom got the living ELL beat out of her a couple of times too but it was mostly overweight me, Chastity Vase , who was the whipping post. I was overweight then. I’m not now, I lost the weight and almost fell through the cracks of anorexia during the craziness of being in love with a vampire. Anyway I’m Chastity Vase and my last name sounds like that uppity way that snooty people say flower vase (VOZZZZZZ).



I am anything but uppity. I’ve always been a victim just trying to survive . I have never been, well liked or loved by anyone ever ; that was until one night while walking through a lightning storm that love found me. I was trying to Commit suicide holding up a metal umbrella and trying to be struck and killed by lightning when a vampire found me . He was a rock star , freshly turned vampire looking for a home because he was being hunted and feared being killed by the oldest vampire in the world, Music Mogul JAKE LARS. Jake Lars was gaining on him and wanted to kill him. Because Danny killed Jake’s daughter, DAHLIA: who happened to be a vampire who loved to plunge her teeth into the fat bellies of infants!Danny being newly turned, was not good with that yet.



So I took him home with me and let him hide in my basement. My vampire didn’t like the way my father was treating me and changed some things when he got there. The vampire rock star turned my life upside down literally in a fantastic way. Danny took me on plane rides . We raced through the clouds in his 2 seater. Danny was so handsome and strong . He was always laughing and wildly strumming his guitar and begging me to dance with him. Me ! I still can’t believe it.



But my heart tells me every bit of it happened and was real. Danny showed a fat girl like me a world that I never even thought existed and definitely never thought that I could be a real part of it.. Dad lost his life in the process of my transformation ; and although it doesn’t seem that way to those around me now; I gained my life in the process.



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(Please see chapters 1-3 on my Blog Archive.)



HOW I MET MY VAMPIRE (Chapter 3)




Chapter Three

“Does your heart beat?” I asked this question because I couldn’t think of anything else to ask Danny Habba, the vampire. I was sitting down in the lonely black leather chair which faced the windowless wall to nowhere. What a lonely place his place was. It reminded me of a prison with it’s gray concrete walls and hard grainy cement floors Danny Habba was walking around strumming his guitar and there were no words for how handsome he looked. He looked, intense and consumed with the emotional cords that he plucked with robot fast fingers.
“No,” he stopped and walked over to me. He kneeled down, reached for my hand and placed it over the place where his heart used to be. His hands were cold, and when he let go of my hand a raised red burn was left stinging as if a bee had just stung the back of my hand.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you.” His voice was sad and he kicked his guitar across the room. “I don’t have a heart and I don’t have a soul, Chastity Vase. I’m in pain right now because I need blood, I need to (he said the latter in a whisper) feed.”
I squirmed in my chair. The one window to the right of me had been spray painted black. There was a door over to the far left corner of the small room. But what use would that be for me against the vampire’s speed?
“If I wanted your blood, there would be no way at all that you could stop me from getting it.”
I watched him turn and direct his tall masculine frame toward the tiny white refrigerator in the corner.
“Would offer you a cold one, but I think you’d decline.”
Once again his voice was soft and in his throat. He bit the corner off of ten packs of pig’s blood gulped them down one after the other and stopped twitching.
“I twitch and my insides turn to acid when I need blood. That’s why when I touched you, I burned your hand .” He wiped a dark red almost black strand of blood from the corner of his chin onto the back of his hand ; then licked it off.
I noticed that Danny was wearing his stage outfit, the one that I saw him wearing the night that he collected all of those grammys’, nine I believe. He was wearing
tight black leather pants with broad gold stripes zigzagging down each side. He was wearing his trademark loose fitting gold silk shirt with hardly any buttons showing off well defined Pec muscles.
I wondered if Danny wore that same outfit all of the time? Did he ever get to change into something else. I bet he looked really great in jeans and a muscle shirt. I wanted to know everything that there was to know about Danny Habba. I had so many questions.
If he answered me fine, and if he didn’t fine, but I had to ask him.
“Do you ever kill humans, drink their blood?” I braced myself for the answer.
“Of course.” He didn’t bat an eye in admitting that he killed humans.
“Cold pig blood is a poor substitute for the real thing.. It’s like taking an aspirin when you’re in morphine pain.”
“You kill humans?” I asked him unable to accept that Danny Habba was a cold-blooded killer who stalked unsuspecting humans in the night and sucked them dry. I tried to understand why he did what he did.
I stammered, “be because you’re in so much pain at the time and the acid will kill you if you don’t get human blood, you’re just protecting yourself.”
“ You are partly right.” He addressed me from the corner of the room, where he’d kicked his guitar. He picked it up, kissed it and began to softly play. He tenderly stroked the strings, making them sound like words, wounded crystal clear words.
“I could exist on pig’s blood if I wanted to but I don’t want to. I like my blood warm and flowing. I like getting the last drop and feeling the surrender that comes from hearing the last breath stop fighting for air.” His eyes glowed and his handsome face was a hard mask of chiseled stone.
His face softened and he smiled . “ I know it sounds horrible, wicked, hideous, and cruel, but it is what it is and I am what I am, a vampire. A killer.”
“Then why didn’t you kill me?”
“I was going to do just that, kill you. I began following you the moment that I saw you walking around alone in the midst of the dangerous thunderstorm. You were carrying that metal umbrella. I was hungry, needed to feed and there you were, Chastity Vase, waiting to be gotten.”
“Then why didn’t you get me? You are a killer who loves your work?”
“ I never said love, I said am. I am what I am. I am A VAMPIRE WHO SAVED YOUR LIFE AND YOU OWE ME.”
“Owe you? What could I possibly do for you? Other than give you my blood ? ” I didn’t mean to say the latter. It just slipped out and Danny laughed as I placed my hand over my wildly pulsating throat.
“Take me home with you. I don’t eat much,” he laughed but his eyes were serious. He wanted to come home with me.
“What’s wrong with here, wherever here is?” I didn’t have a clue where he’d brought me.
I was kind of surprised at his request to come home with me; really but not really because I was in a realm, void of reality and normalcy. I was in a realm where vampires existed and young girls knew them for the blood thirsty killers that they were and yet still wanted to trust them and be near them. I wanted to spend time with Danny. I loved being near him. When he came close to me; it just set my heart pounding ! How I wanted to stay around him.”
“That can be arranged,” he said smiling and staring deep into my eyes.
He stood there, his guitar in hand gazing at me with those fabulous eyes of his. I realized that he was assessing, reading my mind. How long had he been doing it, and what had I been thinking that I did not want him to know?
“Someone’s trying to kill me and I need a place to hide because I’m not ready to die! I want to live!” Danny Habba confessed, almost pleaded with me to take him home with me.
“Who wants to kill you?” I definitely didn’t see him as a victim.
Danny picked up his laptop and opened it. I watched his fingers striking the keys .
“Him! He wants me dead!”
He placed the laptop in my lap and I was staring down at a picture of music mogul Jake Lars.
“First of all you’re already dead and Jake Lars is the man who put you on the map and made you into a world famous star when you were alive and he thinks you’re dead.
No one was more devastated over your untimely death than he was . The man called you his son and went into mourning and left the music industry to grieve when you wrapped yourself around that pole. I read all of this on your fan site. I know that I’m not really thinking clearly and my perception of what is going on around me is not absolutely solid. But what are you saying?”
“I’m saying that Jake Lars is the world’s oldest vampires and he --”
I cut Danny off, this was getting weirder by the minute. Was I now suppose to believe that Jake Lars a man that was known to have the Midas touch and who was so famous that his life was an open book was a vampire? But not only a vampire but the
World’s oldest vampire?
“He’s a vampire alright and he wants me vampire-dead as in staked, beheaded , left in

the sun to dry up and die! I don’t have any reason to lie to you Chastity Vase. If you can see me standing right in front of you and I’m suppose to be dead but clearly not then why so much trouble with seeing that punk Lars for what he is?”
This whole thing that Danny was saying was incredulous. Jake Lars!! Everyone loved Uncle Jake. He contributed to animal charities. He helped the needy and the poor. Every year he opened his house up and let the needy people come in, he made sure that he found homes for them. He took them off of the street----some of them he kept with him and they worked for him. Why was Danny making up lies on Uncle Jake?
Danny was angry with me and blood began to ooze from his eyes.
I didn‘t for one moment think that the blood that was dripping from his eyes meant that he was crying tender bloody tears. Rage! Rage! Vampire rage was what Danny Habba was feeling against me right now and I wondered if the rage would push every bit of Danny away and cause the vampire to kill me.
“Are you going to take me home with you are not ?” He dropped three drained bags of pig‘s blood on to the floor then swiftly bobbed his head from left to right snapping his neck.
“You owe me and if we ’re going to go to your house, we need to go before night.” He said through clinched teeth . He smiled but it was forced; he tried to squelch the anger that he felt for me. It was apparent to me that my doubt meant betrayal in his eyes.
“Before night?” I asked as tenderly as possible trying not to further enrage him. But how was he a vampire going to go out before night?
“I got this in the middle east.” He stressed , yanking down one of the sheet-sized heavy curtains surrounding his bed. “The black color is darker than coal, blacker than anything on earth and it repels the sun,” Danny stated flatly still irate.
“Are we going to your house Chastity Vase and are you going to invite me in once we get there?” Danny Habba was draped from head to toe in a cloak of the blackest blackness. I could not see his face. Absolutely none of his skin was visible.
What choice did I have? I’d already witnessed first hand the bleeding eyes when he became angry. If I said no, what reason would the vampire have to keep me alive?
“Yes we are going to my house but you have to promise me----- you must stay down in the basement once we get there.”
“I will, I’ll let you have your privacy--no one understands the need for privacy more than a vampire.” Danny Habba promised but could I believe him?

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